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With the holiday celebration, comes reflection on the past year and expectation of the new one. And as I sit in quiet reflection I realize how many prayers God has answered this year. Hard prayers that were build on the desire for growth and change. mafia 2 gas meter Lessons that I am so thankful to be learning and a new appreciation for the “still small voice” that whispers direction and conviction into my soul.

For the greater part of this year I struggled with anxiety and worry. Daily I was fighting the voice inside that said, “you’re not good enough, smart enough, strong enough”. Tension, fatigue, and anxiety built until I felt myself disappear into a shell of self-protection and survival. gasset y ortega biografia Sure, I would pray, but I didn’t feel like anything changed. My prayers primarily consisted of pleas for help and rescuing. I was surviving, not thriving.

No answers came in those moments that I prayed those questions. But while I continued to read, I started to realized that my mind became quiet. Those morning hours of reading and praying, and weekly church services filled with worship created stillness. In those times of complete vulnerability and honesty, I started reading about the unconditional Love of God. gas 2 chainz I stumbled again upon the Grace that He gave me and the Mercy that He showed me as He hung, bleeding and broken upon that wooden Cross. I saw the power and provision He demonstrated by conquering death on the third day, removing forever the fear that death once brought. I was reminded of the consistency and faithfulness of God as I read through the Old Testament, how He pursued and protected Israel. And then awed again by the precious heart of my Savior as I read that He adopted me into His eternal family and calls me His beloved child.

Those truths and promises, that identity…they brought peace. Those moments sitting with Jesus, just the two of us in my family room–they taught me to ask questions and wait patiently for an answer. The knowledge that God, in all His power and might, cherishes me and loves me–resulted in a smile of Joy. And throughout the day, as worry and anxiety would start to creep back in, verses that hadn’t jumped out at me that morning, started coming to my mind. It was like Jesus was whispering to me in those moments, “Amanda, are you going to choose to trust Me?”

One night, before what felt like the most pivotal morning of my life, I was walking at the beach, hyperventilating, crying tears of fear and anxiety (lovely picture right?). kd 7 electricity socks Amidst all the thoughts of failure, inadequacy, and honestly shear panic..those words… Trust Me…kept replaying in my soul. As I kept walking, literally struggling to take a deep breath the song Oceans by Hillsong United started playing.

If I am going to pray the words of the song Oceans, Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, Let me walk upon the waters, wherever You would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, where my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior, then I need to be ready to step out upon the waters when things get difficult.

That moment on the beach was a tangible moment, where I was faced with a choice to trust in the One who has never let me sink OR allow doubt to drown me in worry and anxiety. gas refrigerator not cooling I chose to Trust Him. And the most real sense of peace and freedom followed that choice. I can’t explain it, but in that moment I knew that God had answered my prayers.

I don’t know where you are at tonight. Have you even acknowledge God once? Have you accepted Him to be your Savior? Do you know how much He loves you? If not, please choose Him tonight. Choose to trust Him now, choose to accept the Love that the Father-God wants to lavish on you, choose to acknowledge Him first, and He will direct your path. Jesus said in Matthew 12:30 “He who is not with Me, is against Me.” There are only two choices…trust and surrender OR reject and take the reigns yourself.

This Thanksgiving amidst the Christmas music and puzzles, I am most thankful for the Cross. You see, my entire life is built upon the fact that Jesus died to prevent me from having to suffer the consequences of my sin (and yes, I am a sinner). gas bubble in eye John 3:16 says, “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.” It is simple–it is as easy as just believing. But it is a choice that must be made.